Being born Trans is a bored I bear.
You wanna interact on normal grounds with people but its impossible to, I never was into any sport growing up. cause i didn't wanna be put with the girls, didn't get why I cant play ball with the boys ma friends(when I could play just good or beta than some), so I never joined any sport activities, cause if it was running? you had to run with girl and same goes for everything. so i never got to know how far i Might have gone with sports as a career.
I don't know but I was aware I wasn't a girl at an early age, so there wasn't a time I tired to fit in ( technically fitting in was impossible) it was a case of: I felt different, thought i was mentally sick, researched found out, I only found out at age 12, and since Then Life has been the same, actually there wasn't much of a diff' between b4 or after I found out ( though I never came out FOR VERY GOOD REASONS- like getting thrown into a mental home or killed).
my kind of person doesn't like to be the center of attention, i literally hide, don't go out unless necessary, don't club nor party, and now it's all habits, I don't know if right now I just enjoy it all (don't know if that a good thing, I don't even know how to call people, well that's aside, I don't know If this' called living? Though am In school and that's one of the reason am still in my country presently. ma social Life isn't anything to envy.
I don't even Know what field of sport I would have taken up as a Career?
Never had the chance to Join any. when I think about All this? I wish i came as normal as any guy would. men does it hurt!
I don't have access to a gender therapist ( though I need one), non exist in my country ( tried to talk to a doctor and was referred to a mental home.) And to get an online therapist is expensive, am still working on living my country. Well the soon the beta, before I disappear... I need support cause I don't have a job, and still a student( managed to finish paying my school fee, it was quite much), and working on how to get out of my country is expensive, and I still have to pay for top surgery, and Naira has dropped making it hard (the curreny in my country: Nigeria is Naira).
I don't really know how to ask, its not a thing of pride. But I don't how to. Crossing my fingers and praying for the very best.